Blackhole

 

Yesterday, just like living in my worst nightmare!! I felt soo desperated… depressed… lost… unconvinced… about everything… anything… that I’d ever wished for.

 

That moment… I’d been hoping… if a blackhole is truly exist… I’d hoped it would found me… sucked me… so I would be gone… no need to felt all of these pain and madness.

 

Then, in the middle of my unconsious… there he came, took care of all messed in me. He had listened… he told me everything I needed to heard… that he…not like others… would always be here with me…

 

Most of all…He had made me believe… believe in me… believe in us… gave me another hope…

I’d always knew that God is trully existed and watched me…

 

But I’d guessed… I’d never realized it before… God could help us… in someone…

 

Finally…

Finally I’ve met him…
Damn…I miss him soo bad!! it’s been so long…too long…I’ve been waiting just to see him!!

When I saw him, honestly I just wanted hug him…kiss him…but…sigh…we’re in public!! did I told you that I hate being in the crowd? well, this is one of the reason why…plus one of his friends had join us to hang out together….so, I just couldn’t kiss him just like that everytime I want it.

Right now…even though I’m so happy coz I’d just met him…I’m still missing him…it’s all because that stupid kiss…I didn’t know, why sometimes man just couldn’t see it??? We haven’t see each other for a long time…and when we finally met…well, let’s just say that it’s not turns out the way that I expected

But just like everybody said…you have to accept the one you love just the way they are…and I have to accept that sometimes my lover is just insensitive….haha!! :p

Darling…I miss you…if you read this…I miss you so much, it’s killin’ me to know that maybe it’ll take another long time just to see you again I hate that fact so bad!!

These whole things makes me stay awake instead sleeping…

Here We Go Again

Woo…Hoo!! I’ve got a new blog…
This is my second blog…somehow I think that I need a new beginning in my life…and started a new blog is one of my effort for it.

Who am I? it’s kinda hard to say…I could just say that I’m just an ordinary girl with an ordinary life, but something inside of me, always knew that everbody…every single life…is special. So, I guess (hope)…that I’m quite special too.

So, what makes me special? Let me think about it. I’m special because I’m different. Not like many other girls out there…I’m not using most of my time for shopping, fashion, or something hip like that I don’t really like crowd actually…which turns out that I don’t really like the mall…

I love nature and animal…and love…love reading especially non-fiction one, movie’s freak, has universal taste for music, and for now…I’m dangerously in love with my half…(blushing).

Well, you can see that I’m an introvert person. Yup, I am…took a lot of time and effort for me to trust someone…because I’d been dissapointed by person over and over again. I could easily making friends since I’ve got a HUGE of taste of humor…but I had difficulty in mantain my relationship…this is my greatest weakness…but NOT in my love life…